I'm sitting here and I really have nothing to write. I've had a lot to think about lately. A lot of things going wrong in my life, and sometimes I have no idea what to do or where to go. The thing that disappoints me the most is... when you finally start to get a few things taken care of, and life seems to be going OK, something comes along and BOOM! it's gone, just like that... or things are all messed again. :(

My life is OK for the most part.

School is going great. I really like my classes and my teachers. I'm meeting more people and I've been less shy than I thought I'd be. Sami is in my English class, so I see him quite a bit. I've befriended a girl named Kim. She's pretty cool. Reminds me a lot of a girl I know back home.

Hyder and I have become really close, lately. We're just friends, tho. Which is totally cool.

I've really become close to a few people lately, and I guess that's a good thing, right?

Garett is awesome. We talk a lot, every day. Law Student at UMKC. He has the best sense of humor ever! I LOVE it! He comes up with the goofiest things, and gets my corny jokes and what not. He told me the other day, he thinks I'm a spaz... is that good? lol.

My roommate sent me an email about problems she has with me. More or less, it's total bullshit. She blames me for her problems... A lot of times, I think she is jealous that I have my parents to help me out, and that I have less responsibilities than she does. That's not my problem. I was ignoring it, up until the last month or two... it's really beginning to get to me. She is very two-faced at times. One comment she made, was that she never tells anyone about what goes on between us (which I know for a fact, is not true.) and that she has heard me talking about her to "chat" people or they tell her ("you know how "chatters" can be. WHAT kinda comment is that?) I have never said anything to anyone other than my parents and best friend, and in the past, to Josh... I made comments to John, because I know she tells him that I don't pay for things and what not, I've told him that's not true, and that's ALL I've said. I think it's just time to get out of this situation and move on with my life.

I walk on eggshells and tiptoe around a lot because I'm afraid of pissing anyone off. I keep to myself. I barely come out of my room except to use the computer, bathroom, or to use the kitchen... I don't even feel like this is my house, too, anymore. It's like it's all HERS. It should be 50-50. Yeah, I admit, She has helped me a few times... but I've helped her, and I have everything I could need and want... and She and her kids go without... and It doesn't even bug me. WHATEVER! I don't know how many times, I've helped Danny... by trying to be a friend/older sister figure... by buying him things...taking him places... It's ridiculous.

I keep my mouth shut, because I'm not going to fight or argue with her, and I know she wants confrontation. I know when to accept my bad parts... when I screw up... and I'm not above myself, to do that, or to apologize when I need to.

Anyway, moving on...

Brock and I do nothing but argue and fight. He said last night, he thinks I don't care. He's very possessive and controlling, and we're not even DATING! we're just friends!!!!! I used to do whatever boyfriends, or friends wanted... now I speak up and I stand up for myself. He doesn't like that.

That's pretty much it for now. I'll write more later or in a few days...