And the stars aren't out tonight...These wishes I've wished, and these dreams I've chased...
January 19, 2004 - 11:54 a.m.
I had a pretty good weekend. Leigh came down and spent it with me. We didn't do much on Friday, but on Saturday... w00t.
We went shopping all day in KS, then went to get my friend April, and picked up Haider and headed out to the bar in Overland Park. There were a lot of people there, some I knew, some I didn't. I met some that I didn't know. I didn't even drink, and I was having a blast. I got out on the dance floor, and had an awesome time. Mostly, because Haider and I were dancing quite a bit together. He challenged me to a game of pool, and I lost. Imagine that. Got lots of hugs and kisses, and then we left. I took Haider home first. He hugged me goodnight and told me he was sorry about smacking my ass on the dance floor... haha... then we took April back to her car, hit mickey dee's and headed home for bed.
Sunday morning, I talked to Haider... he apologized again, but said he really liked me and had a lot of fun. Would have kissed me but didn't know how I would react. (He should have just done it!) He's really nice, and damn is he cute.
I'm single... having a good time. I've been on a few dates, but I don't think I'd pursue a relationship with them. I'm just waiting to see what happens.
No reason to sit around and be broken hearted and only think about one person, when we all know he doesn't want me... and so much for being friends - we aren't even that now. I heard he got a girlfriend not too long after we broke up. Good for him tho, as long as he's happy. I'll admit I still think of him often, and it still hurts, but I'm moving on. I'll always love him, but you can't make someone love you back.
Classes start Wednesday. I'm excited and nervous all at once. EEE! :) I am only taking 2 this semester, but hey it's better than nothing. Early morning ones, at that :(
I'm not really home much anymore. I've been spending a lot of time with Sami (one of the guys I went on a date with), I'm not really wanting to date him, but we hang out a lot and stuff. We got the same classes and what not, so it's hard to not see him! he's nice tho. If we're not out and at the mall or something, I'm usually at work with the Johnson's or at Maranda's.
Life isn't so bad, but I still get depressed. Roommate situation is awkward. I'm broke. etc.
Anyway, that's all for now, this entry really sucked... I'll write later this week when something cool happens, haha.
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A perfect world...this sort of thing only happens in my dreams.
Falling to Remember - Stumbling to Forget