I don't know what is up with me?

I gave up a lot to be where I am now, and I don't really feel all that happy. I mean sure I can put on an act - but honestly, I am not truly happy. I guess more hours and more money can't always keep you happy. :(

I take it out on Joe, and it's not his fault... I feel awful. A lot of the time, I think he purposely tries to push my buttons and see how far he can go before I get upset. I've been so upset that I've slept in the other room on the futon... isn't that ridiculous? We're not married... lol.

I haven't heard from Kenneth in almost a week. I have no idea what is going on with that. I figured we were trying to repair a relationship and see what/where it went - but he hasn't been online, or called, and I can't get away from KC right now with work and all.

Beats me as to what's really going on in my life.

Daniel will be back in Mid August, they think. Supposedly, they will be redeployed around July 15th... I'm ready for my buddy to be home! :)

Anyway, that's all... I'll write more later.