I'm depressed.

It could be financial, jobs... etc... all that in one.

Paul is a really nice guy. I spent time again with him last night. I enjoy his company, but I'm not sure where it will go. I'm not rushing to get into anything serious, at this point.

I like someone, but I think they only think of me as a friend. I don't know if I should say anything.

I am looking for another job... I've applied several places, I hope something comes up soon. I hate walmart - and the pay. I am so far behind in bills right now, its ridiculous.

Joe asked me to be his roommate... we're looking for a house. At least, that's at the last of my worries. I know he will be a good roommate, and take care of things, too. I've had bad luck in the past... He pays his bills, he's a guy - so that means I won't have to be afraid to live alone, and he's my best friend. I think it would work out well, plus I'd have Romeo there to keep me company too! :)

I've been so stressed, but I'm working through it step by step. Sometimes, I just want to break down and start crying... I catch myself from doing so. I am very emotional. I've always been. I, sometimes have a very hard time dealing with my emotions and saying how I feel. That's where writing comes in - I can sit here and type every single emotion, thought, feeling... and have no regrets and no one to belittle, disapprove, or make fun of me in any way. and if someone does... I don't care ;) It's only the internet.

I am getting better at it... but sometimes, I think I feel like it's a weakness, I don't want people to see me get upset, or emotional about things. People take advantage of that, wayyy too much. It's like my personal wall, or guard. It's better that way.

Anyway, that's it... I gotta get to work.